Well beyond my years.

I find it a little annoying, actually.

It is SO hard to relate to kids these days. I mean, sure, I'm still only a teenager. But I feel like I completely skipped that chapter in life. It's almost as if I morphed from a child, straight into a young adult, because I can't remember anything in between.

In High School, they say you discover finally who you are.
But, I already know who I am. And I clearly don't fit in with anyone.

Fact is: I'm not a people person.
There are very few people I genuinely like. Hell, I can even count them on my fingers.
I've always thought life was one big play that God set out of us. Our journey is to discover ourselves, and play the perfect part. Find a place where you belong.
That is where the 'acting' part comes in. I pretend to like a lot of people, when really, I can't stand them.
I don't say I don't like them. I show no animosity. But on the inside, I secretly have no interest in them.
I threw away my script years ago.

That's not to say I'm a mean person. Really, I'm not. I just find that many people aren't really themselves. And I hate that.

Conformity is disaster.
Why bother being someone you aren't? Why waste your time? You only live once, and if we are in fact incarnations, we wouldn't know anyway.
Life is so short. I know that's a clichéd saying, but it is so true.
I look at other kids, trying so hard to be like one another. No wonder life is so dull these days.

I'm not backing down.
I'm opinionated. So be it. I always fight for what I believe in: whether it be music, beliefs, or something that needs defending. My resistance against conformity never sways. You can count on that.

Every single day, I work on myself.
I know I can be too loud or over-bearing at times, so I try to tone myself down. Not for other people. For me. I don't want to be regarded as a loud mouth bitch, but I'm sure many people think I am.

I hate close-minded people.
Whenever somebody is rude about religious beliefs, homosexuality, or a certain ethnicity, I always call them out on it.
Seriously. Ask my friends. Whether it be a stranger, or my BFF, I always yell at them "DON'T USE GAY AS A SYNONYM FOR STUPID." A very cool dude told me that once, and it always stuck.

Ignorance is bliss.
One of my favorite sayings. I'd rather be completely in the dark about something hurtful, even if it's just pushing the pain off to a later date. My life is painful enough as it is..

"A soul of music"
That's actually the title of my blog.
I know many people say that 'music is their life,' but I am one of the few who mean it.
I can't even imagine my life without it. I don't want to. It's the first thing I think about when I wake up, and my very last thought before I sleep.
I never take my headphones out. It could be regarded as antisocial behavior, but I really couldn't care less.
I play guitar. I'm not very good, but I'm in lessons, and I practice a lot. I want to learn for myself; not for anyone else.
Music makes the pain go away, even if the relief is only temporary. I'd be lost without it.

Well, I guess that was just a bigger look at who I am. But, really, you'd have to get to know me before you judged.