Just a little excerpt of my feelings.
No names will be mentioned.
Wow.
I can't even fucking believe you'd say that to me. I know that we haven't been as close anymore, and it saddens me.
You have your life, I have mine. It's as simple as that.
With nothing in common, a completely different set of morals, and the fact that we rarely see each other was obviously set to take its toll.
That doesn't mean I dislike you. It doesn't mean I don't want to be your friend. It just means that we're not that close.
That happens frequently with friends. Our lives head in different directions, and we change.
And I. I have changed a lot since you first met me.
I am different now. I can't be someone else for you. I can't pretend I don't hate mainstream. I can't pretend to be ordinary. And I certainly cannot pretend that I agree with what you say.
I'm sorry.
I always predicted this would happen.
With two souls, so completely different, how could we stay on the same page?
It just couldn't work.
And your mind is under the influence of another. You have YOUR OWN brain. Why don't you try using it for once?
I bet you were perfectly fine before ideas were planted into your head. That's always the way it is.
I've tried so hard to keep silent. Bite my tongue. Chant to myself, "keep it in your head..."
But I can't do it. I can't..
You thought I did something wrong. I apologized.
You chose not to accept it, so I can't be held accountable for that.
I trusted you.
I cared about you.
I wanted us to be friends.... forever.
But, forever is just a myth, isn't it?
Or, it's really like a sunset. Painters try to capture its magnificence everyday.... But it is gone far before they have the chance to complete it.
I've extended the invitation. If you choose to decline, that's your choice. But I know that at the end of the day, I didn't turn you away. So you've nothing to hold against me.
Life is hard enough without losing a friend.
I really didn't want it to end this way.
I don't hate you. I never have.
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